Problems

Have to be honest, I have a problem to admit & for some reason it is harder to admit than I thought. Seriously, I know that I am cannot be the only one, so here I am trying to let those othersknow you are not alone & I am here to show you that you too can change!

Guess my ‘problem’ starts with us moving ump-teen times, all over North America. Yes, was crazy how many times we ping-ponged from coast to coast, state to state, rental house to rental house. We really did live in some stellar locations & dreamy rentals. If you are interested in seeing some of the homes, we did a couple rental house tours:

Seriously we had a pool, still hard for us both to believe. No regrets for swimming in it every chance we got to for the brief period we called Florida home.

What is my ‘PROBLEM’?

Back to the point, fast forward to where I, & my family, find ourselves now – owning our own place. I would be lying if I said I was not happy to be exactly where we are today – and am so proud of us in how it all came about. Owning our own property, our current home, is not the problem:

I was my own problem.

Let me explain, as I can see that glazed look in your eyes. After living in ump-teen rentals, and nice ones at that, my perspectives got shifted/changed. I cannot say that those changes were for the better or worse, simply changed. So fast forward to where we currently are, my problem had been that I was still looking at my home with that unchanged perspective. K, still seeing a confused look. Let me explain a bit more..

My problem was that I had gotten used to having a rental. The ease of being an occupant, moving into a picture perfect home, something breaks, no worries – simply call and everything is fixed. When we purchased our current home with cash, we were so very proud of ourselves & thrilled to start the homeowner adventure once again. Having a rental had soften me (Aaron is a machine, he has been working on something since we moved in) & I long forgotten what it was like to own an old home once again. Thankful for family that helped us get the old home in shape for us to move in & keep us reminded of how capable we actually are & how they do things or how their parents did things – fun circle of collected information!

I thought that we would have this old house looking like one of the fancy rentals that we had once called home. I pictured the home transforming like the old pumpkin into a fancy carriage, like in the Cinderella movie. Which it could have, if we were not stubborn about not going into debt. It was a hard decision that we had made long before we embarked on this adventure of becoming flower farmers, back when we both were back in our cushy corporate jobs – made this decision & now it is easy as we already made it. Weird to most, ya, but we have always beat to a different drum – and is nice to not have to worry about debt.

Alright, you are probably lost in what the point of this post is.. The problem I had with thinking that our old house was just that, an old dumpy house. I was looking at it through all the wrong lenses, lenses that I can no longer wear as our situation is not as it once was. I no longer have a 9-5 corporate job that has benefits and weekends off. I have reminded myself that I am now a flower farmer, who current motto is slow is the new fast & learning never ends. I look back at those days and am grateful for all that I learned & laugh at how looking back my path seems to have been leading us to exactly where I find myself now. I am at home in our messy, old, animal-filled greenhouse. I am learning on how to run a farm, grow flowers & pasture raised chicken and pork, alongside my husband. Life as a farmer is hard, but I have never had a career so very rewarding.

I simply wanted to say that sometimes one has to really take a step back when dealing with a ‘problem’ you face. I really let my ‘problem’ (viewing of how I was looking at my home/life from the wrong point of view) get in the way of the joy everyday presents. Having the mind-shift of changing my perspective of looking at my ‘old dumpy house’ as a house we worked our butt off to save for & was able to pay it off completely with our hard-saved money helped me see what a shallow view I had been harbouring. Hard to do, but feels so good for my heart.

Now that my view is one of more depth, ha – please do pop over! I cannot say that our house will be in perfect hosting condition, but I promise that you will be welcomed in to our little hectic home!

Melanie